Hot Stuff

I'm in Starbucks drinking hot stuff... This is weird.

Man, Oh Man

Something that a lot of people don't know about me would be that I have a tendency to watch a lot of anime. I watch enough of it that I actually have to keep track of it all by writing it down. Now, I don't know about you, but I don't just watch it for the cheap thrills of explosions, gunshots, and swords. What I really appreciate about it is the artistic expression of joy, loss, stress, romance, struggle, love, and so many more things.

Earlier this week I finished a series that had challenged me like nothing had for a while lately. It was the story of a man. This man reminded me very much of myself. It told the story of his transition from a boy to a man and the responsibilities that came along with that. It explored some of the questions and fears that I've had for a long time. In the story, this man graduated high school, married his love, and did his best to live for her and protect her. He wasn't perfect, but he did his best.

To me, that's inspiring. I've been afraid that I won't be perfect in supporting the family that I hope to have someday. I've been afraid of letting down the ones that I love the most. To be honest, that really hasn't changed. What has changed, though, is how I see my future. I will face it with courage.

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Side Note: Courage is not the absence of fear, but being able to face those fears with boldness.

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I will face the risks and the challenges that come with taking on the responsibility of a man. I will provide for those who will place their lives under my protection. I will love those who I have vowed to love. I will appreciate the beauty of the beautiful.

I will live radically for my God.

Now there's something truly manly.

Good People

So I was sitting in church this morning and something was said that I didn't agree with so here's my little rant. :)

"No one is good but God alone."

There are no 'good' people. Everything about me that could be considered good comes, not from myself, but from Christ. That is the difference between being 'good' and being redeemed. I am, beyond all doubt, on my own without God, a pig rolling around in the mud of sin. But God looked down, found me in the mud, and washed me clean. It was not me who did anything to make myself 'good'.

It's not about me, but Christ in me.

Deuteros

I was blind before I knew you

You gave me eyes to see

I was dead as they come

And You gave me a new life to live

I was lame along the road

You gave me the strength to reach my destination

I was more sick than a leper

And You healed up every scar and sore

I was looked down to as a prostitute

You loved me as I was

I was desperate as a beggar

And You gave me everything I need

I was dumb as a mute

You gave me hope to speak to the world

It was all about me

I know better now.

A Genesis of Sorts

“I know that you can do all things, 

and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted. 

‘Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge?’ 

Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, 

things too wonderful for me, which I did not know. 

‘Hear, and I will speak; 

I will question you, and you make it known to me.’ 

I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear, 

but now my eye sees you; 

therefore I despise myself, 

and repent in dust and ashes.” (Job 42:2-6)

This is why I've started this blog. I'm sitting here in the chapel, listening to the voices of godly people that I live life with every day and they're all praising God for who He is. It's times like this when I remember why I'm here. I'm not on this planet for my own benefit. I'm here to praise and worship the only one who is worthy.
"I despise myself, and repent in dust and ashes." I'm so unworthy of every single thing that God has blessed me with. Who am I to deserve anything at all? That's exactly it. I'm nobody. But God came to rescue the nobodies like me.
Then I remember how huge God is. And I remember who God is. God is just, but he's also loving and forgiving.


That's what I'm thinking about today.


I don't know what kinds of things I will be posting on this blog. I've never really had anything like this before. Normally, people just don't know what I'm thinking and that's what I'm comfortable with. Anyways, keep an eye out and I might accidentally say something profound every once in a while.


Don't forget to love somebody today!